princess_runt

04:34 pm: something to ponder
sometimes i wonder if it's worth updating every so often. no one sees it, well i'm sure some do but not the ones i had hoped. so really what's the point? i wouldn't mind trying to keep this up to date if i knew that ppl were reading it or if others kept up to date with me. it's just hard i guess, being so far from them and yet not so far. funny huh how friendships just seem to die off with only a few miles between them. oh well i guess, figure i'll just keep all my good news to myself for a bit longer. maybe i'll share it some other time. maybe.

06:59 pm: funny huh
isn't it funny how you find lil things and then poof they just happen to explain just enough to make you wonder. for instance, i don't do the whole internet thing often or keep up on this lj thingy to know all the different changes they make and whatnot. well it just so happens i ended up reading a post from someone that was dated way back when and i had never read it til just now. come to find out she'd changed her account name, something i hadn't known, but that doesn't matter, it's what she sent that boggles my mind. i really don't want to go into detail and all but it just makes me wonder what if. oh well. things and times have changed and i don't know if it was for the better or the worse. either way it happened. not quite sure why it happened but it did and that's that i guess. ok this is not making any sense so i'm quitting and going to do something else.

07:04 pm: Oh those Happy Holidays!
ah but what are happy holidays if you don't get to see your friends. i know, i always seem so down when i post but to be honest i just can't help it. i kept up with this thing in hopes of keeping in touch with my girlies but in reality it just didn't work out according to plan. they's just always busy busy busy. ah well. in hopes that maybe if i just happen to wish on a falling star that they see this i give you all a merry christmas and a happy new year. maybe you can just come spend new year's eve w/ me ;)

01:19 pm: frustrating
i want my girls back. i miss them so. zach talked to me yesterday about his friend jessie whom he can talk to about anything and that made me think of my girls and how much i really miss them b/c really i have no one i can talk to here. sure i have other friends but none that i can talk to about the deep dark things. plus it makes me feel weird b/c these friends are all still either just graduated or still in high school. boy does that make me feel old and in some ways like a cradle robber b/c i dunno, i'm not doing anything bad it just seems weird at times. when i'm around them i forget that i'm a 22yrold and just see myself as one of them. but then there are the times when i'm bout ready to talk about something that makes me seem/feel older and i feel that i can't really talk to them about it b/c of the age difference. ah..it makes me sad....but hey, i'm leaving for silver lake in a couple of hours so i'll cheer up soon.
bye for now

04:13 pm: Vacation is near!
for a moment i forgot what i was going to write about..silly me. ah yes..vacation!!! finally it's drawing nearer only one more week to go! then it's up to michigan to the dunes for a weekend..yeah i know it's only a weekend but hey it's a vacation and i'm going to enjoy it.
i got a call from nina the other day and we had a good chat, i miss those girls oh so much i wish that there was an easier way to keep in touch and see them but as i don't have time to travel a lot and don't have the internet to chat online it sucks.
zach and i are still together, we've made it past our one year mark! we're kinda in an iffy situation right now but it's nothing to really be worried about and we're gonna figure it out. it just means some life changes
well i really don't have much else to say

05:48 pm: Lalalalalalala
Oh what a beautiful morning! Oh what a beautiful day! ok so maybe it's not morning anymore and it is a beautiful day but hot and muggy so that kinda downsides it. My weekend was a blast! Miah and Stephanie had their wedding and yes even though they eloped in KY back in March they wanted to have friends and family around to experience this with them. I myself got to be apart of the bridal party and even got to drink with Zach's parents, great fun!! Doug is such a fun guy even though he acts all tough and whatnot...the boys even did karaoke all 4 of them and yeah that included Tanner. Well, they more or less screamed into the microphones but we all still had fun. Zach even stripped and went swimmin in the pond(well he wore his boxers thank god). Other than that it's been a good time.

11:50 pm: yeah, her tits felt like bags of.....sand
anyways, i'm not sure what's w/ that but ah well

04:11 pm: heehee
sooo...thanksgiving was great. visited cass in SC, hoody weather all week and went to the beach every night. the sunsets were awesome. that's pretty much it...oh yes..hahahah you guys had snow!

03:28 pm: when you're lost, on life's trail...and you feel you will fail
yup, exactly how i feel at the moment. anything i do just doesn't seem to be right. don't know if i can take it anymore. life sucks.

12:23 pm: honestly, i have no idea anymore who reads this...if at all. which is a bummer b/c i was hopin it could be used mostly for keepin me girlies updated on whatnot things that were goin on w/ me since i can't be online all the time like i want to be. i dunno, guess i figure it's kinda sad that certain things have turned out the way they have. mostly i just feel cut off from it all. maybe i did that myself but hey i gotta work and all that jazz. i know that there are some (or maybe just one) who doesn't seem to like my being w/ zach but hell i don't care. they can just shove it, whatever.